the end
well, here we are again, a day late and a dollar short. I thought about stripping down the number of days and making it a few days a week sort of thing, but that is a lie and also I don't think that would work. The thing is - I've only been talking about my life. Not really about truth, not really about anything at all. Even if what I say is insightful, that is beside the point of this project. near, but not the same.
So I could go through a laundry-list of the embarassing events of my past and hope that I came through them with something new and honest to write about, but why? that faded truth has no bearing on reality, and so is open to be accessed by anyone at any time.
That's the problem, really. I have nothing to say, nowhere to go with this project. The life I lead has become boring and hopeful, and I'm not going to write fiction about truth because let's face it every joe shmoe in the world does that.
No. This project has ended as a failure - that is, the original question of whether it was a good idea or not to live a completely honest life has gone unanswered. To be perfectly honest relies on perfect understanding, which is bullshit. And it's not honest to speculate on that which you don't understand, it's something else entirely. The bottom line is that no one cares about honesty, that it means nothing to them except in a vague optimistic way. Real honesty never has as much of an effect as real sympathy, which can be completely dishonest. Honesty in a vacuum doesn't exist. Anything in the social realm is taken by some as truth and by some as lies, just as a general course, and whether it's true or not has no bearing on whether they believe it. So the truth is assumed to be a lie, or the lie assumed to be truth, and what you come out with in the end is that they're almost exactly the same. The difference is, when a lie is ousted for the truth, that is based on humanity and their control issues, and when a truth becomes something different, when something changes and what used to be true is no longer, that is out of human control. So my conclusion? People lie because they want to feel in control. I wanted to be entirely honest because I wanted to give up control completely. But I couldn't do it.
so that's the end, and thanks for joining us. If we decide to take up the reigns again, it won't be with this project, but with something new. So this is not indefinite hiatus, this is the end of the line.
So I could go through a laundry-list of the embarassing events of my past and hope that I came through them with something new and honest to write about, but why? that faded truth has no bearing on reality, and so is open to be accessed by anyone at any time.
That's the problem, really. I have nothing to say, nowhere to go with this project. The life I lead has become boring and hopeful, and I'm not going to write fiction about truth because let's face it every joe shmoe in the world does that.
No. This project has ended as a failure - that is, the original question of whether it was a good idea or not to live a completely honest life has gone unanswered. To be perfectly honest relies on perfect understanding, which is bullshit. And it's not honest to speculate on that which you don't understand, it's something else entirely. The bottom line is that no one cares about honesty, that it means nothing to them except in a vague optimistic way. Real honesty never has as much of an effect as real sympathy, which can be completely dishonest. Honesty in a vacuum doesn't exist. Anything in the social realm is taken by some as truth and by some as lies, just as a general course, and whether it's true or not has no bearing on whether they believe it. So the truth is assumed to be a lie, or the lie assumed to be truth, and what you come out with in the end is that they're almost exactly the same. The difference is, when a lie is ousted for the truth, that is based on humanity and their control issues, and when a truth becomes something different, when something changes and what used to be true is no longer, that is out of human control. So my conclusion? People lie because they want to feel in control. I wanted to be entirely honest because I wanted to give up control completely. But I couldn't do it.
so that's the end, and thanks for joining us. If we decide to take up the reigns again, it won't be with this project, but with something new. So this is not indefinite hiatus, this is the end of the line.
# posted by Max Roderick on Tuesday, August 11, 2009 
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